The tide just turned +++

look who's writing a livejournal post, after like a billion years. well a proper one anyway. not just a few lines from song lyrics that are supposed to represent my inner emotions lol i guess im just THAT bored, eh?

then i shall speak my mind.

this summers been just ok. maybe had a few good weekends. been caught up with other stuff that kinda makes it difficult to keep a positive mood. others, however, dont have a care in the world. but anyway, aside of that, adam and i are going to Cayo Coco, Cuba on august 8 for our 3 year anniversary. its been tough, still is really, but i plan on giving it my all this final month to really figure out where we stand.

weird coincidences occurring as well. i keep having the same dream since the little getaway to wasaga in june. 4 times to be exact now. first time the 2nd day at wasaga, 2 and 3rd time maybe a week after that, then as soon as i stopped noticing i had them, a 4th one hits me a few days ago. its bothering me though cause some people say dreams are what you think about all the time. funny, cuz i actually dont try to think about this particular dream. dont get me wrong, its a good dream in a way, just..not really.

and on top of these ever so interesting thoughts going on in my imagination land, crazy things in REALITY are surfacing here and there that tease me about this goddamn dream. like AHHH. GO AWAY. my heart can only handle so much eh! im convinced im going loopy. yes, thats it. its making me crack smiles throughout the day like some crazy person. oh well, its just a dream..right?

going to Circa this weekend for Bousi's 21st birthday.
i predict it'll be exactly like any other night i end up going to a club.
not to worry, there will be booze.

Pain, make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a R!OT in me.

I know you don't usually hear me talk like this
I got a little game
that I wanna play
Are you ready?

When I think about You
I Think About Giving Myself To You
Cause You Know I Want You Baby and
I Would Do Anything
I Know You Thinkin
The Same Thing Baby

So Come Get It
I'm So Excited
I Can't Hide My Feelings Get It
I Want Stop To We Start Over and Finish
Tonight It's All About My Baby
I'm Feening For You
You Get Me High
I Can't Stop You Feel Me

Close The Door
Bed or Floor?
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
It's All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You

When I Think About Us
I think About The Way We Make Love
The Way That You Make Me Sweat
Make Me Want A Cigarette and
I Ain't no Smoking Chick
But You Got Me Wanting It

SO DONT STOP
You Making Me Hot
I Feel It Right There
We tossin and turnin
So Keep It Right It There
My Adrenaline is Pumping
My Stomach Muscles Getting Tight
Skin So Wet My Fingers Slide

Gonna To Take You To Place
You Ain't Never Been
Again Again and Again
I Want You to Feel It Baby
I'm About To Handle My Business Baby
Make Sure You Handle Me Too

Close The Door
Bed or Floor
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
Its All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You Commit Baby

Who's Going To Be First To Scream
Out Loud
I Know You Lose After Second Round
The Consequence Baby
That You Have Switch to The Third Round
And Make Me Scream
Like When I Put It Down Put On A Little Show
To Let Your Baby Know
By Then, I Should Be Screaming
Uncontrollably

Hope You ready To Stay Up
One Time Is Not Enough
Nothing Too Much, Baby
Just What I Want Baby

Close The Door
Bed or Floor
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
Its All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You

in one fell swoop it became clear to me
that i despise you entirely
but the good news is i'm gonna keep you around
and so your lust is just conveniant now

CAUSE FOR HATE AND A CAUSE FOR ENDING
IT SOUNDS SO EASY
BUT EVERYTIME WE WERE SUPPOSED TO LET GO
WE'D MAKE LOVE
NOW PULL ME CLOSER, LET THE HEAT TAKE OVER

Melissa don't think
she's pretty no more

Starin at the stars
through her back screen door

she tried and tried
to make it all work out

no matter what she does
she's left standin in the middle of doubt

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain you can count on me

sometimes she cries
when she's alone at night
sometimes she weeps
when she's feelin cold and weak
sometimes the pain
it just tears her up inside
sometimes she cries
ooooo.... i wonder why?

melissa don't have
a lover anymore

plays with her pillow
stares at the bedroom floor

used to have a million
they've come and gone..

no matter what she does,
she cant figure out what she's doin' wrong

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain you can count on me


living, loving
givin evrything youve got
after all the heartache
MAYBE GIVE LOVE JUST ONE MORE SHOT YEAH

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain..
THE ONLY THING I REALLY WANNA KNOW IS WHY...


=(

..and my heart gets no rest over you

and i fear i cant take it

tell me where our time went
and if it was time well spent
just dont let me fall asleep
feeling empty again

CAUSE I FEAR I MIGHT BREAK
AND I FEAR I CANT TAKE IT
TONIGHT I'LL LIE AWAKE
FEELING EMPTY

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you
i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And theres nothing else to show
For all of the days that were spent
carrying away from hope

SOME THINGS I'LL NEVER KNOW
AND I HAD TO LET THEM GO
IM SITTING ALL ALONE
FEELING EMPTY

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you
i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you

without you

somethings i'll never know
and i had to let them go
somethings i'll never know
and i had to let them go
but i'm sitting all alone
feeling empty

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you


FEEL THE PRESSURE
ITS GETTING CLOSER NOW
YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME