The tide just turned +++

i MUST be dreaming.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 00:14:48 GMT

look who's writing a livejournal post, after like a billion years. well a proper one anyway. not just a few lines from song lyrics that are supposed to represent my inner emotions lol i guess im just THAT bored, eh?

then i shall speak my mind.

this summers been just ok. maybe had a few good weekends. been caught up with other stuff that kinda makes it difficult to keep a positive mood. others, however, dont have a care in the world. but anyway, aside of that, adam and i are going to Cayo Coco, Cuba on august 8 for our 3 year anniversary. its been tough, still is really, but i plan on giving it my all this final month to really figure out where we stand.

weird coincidences occurring as well. i keep having the same dream since the little getaway to wasaga in june. 4 times to be exact now. first time the 2nd day at wasaga, 2 and 3rd time maybe a week after that, then as soon as i stopped noticing i had them, a 4th one hits me a few days ago. its bothering me though cause some people say dreams are what you think about all the time. funny, cuz i actually dont try to think about this particular dream. dont get me wrong, its a good dream in a way, just..not really.

and on top of these ever so interesting thoughts going on in my imagination land, crazy things in REALITY are surfacing here and there that tease me about this goddamn dream. like AHHH. GO AWAY. my heart can only handle so much eh! im convinced im going loopy. yes, thats it. its making me crack smiles throughout the day like some crazy person. oh well, its just a dream..right?

going to Circa this weekend for Bousi's 21st birthday.
i predict it'll be exactly like any other night i end up going to a club.
not to worry, there will be booze.

..no matter how Unbearable this Misery gets.

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 18:19:36 GMT

Pain, make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a R!OT in me.

Tamia - Can't Get Enough

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 15:49:12 GMT

I know you don't usually hear me talk like this
I got a little game
that I wanna play
Are you ready?

When I think about You
I Think About Giving Myself To You
Cause You Know I Want You Baby and
I Would Do Anything
I Know You Thinkin
The Same Thing Baby

So Come Get It
I'm So Excited
I Can't Hide My Feelings Get It
I Want Stop To We Start Over and Finish
Tonight It's All About My Baby
I'm Feening For You
You Get Me High
I Can't Stop You Feel Me

Close The Door
Bed or Floor?
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
It's All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You

When I Think About Us
I think About The Way We Make Love
The Way That You Make Me Sweat
Make Me Want A Cigarette and
I Ain't no Smoking Chick
But You Got Me Wanting It

SO DONT STOP
You Making Me Hot
I Feel It Right There
We tossin and turnin
So Keep It Right It There
My Adrenaline is Pumping
My Stomach Muscles Getting Tight
Skin So Wet My Fingers Slide

Gonna To Take You To Place
You Ain't Never Been
Again Again and Again
I Want You to Feel It Baby
I'm About To Handle My Business Baby
Make Sure You Handle Me Too

Close The Door
Bed or Floor
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
Its All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You Commit Baby

Who's Going To Be First To Scream
Out Loud
I Know You Lose After Second Round
The Consequence Baby
That You Have Switch to The Third Round
And Make Me Scream
Like When I Put It Down Put On A Little Show
To Let Your Baby Know
By Then, I Should Be Screaming
Uncontrollably

Hope You ready To Stay Up
One Time Is Not Enough
Nothing Too Much, Baby
Just What I Want Baby

Close The Door
Bed or Floor
I Just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You
What I Got In Store
Its All Of Yours
I just Want More
I Can't Get Enough Of You

***

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 00:13:16 GMT

in one fell swoop it became clear to me
that i despise you entirely
but the good news is i'm gonna keep you around
and so your lust is just conveniant now

Q

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 01:51:58 GMT

CAUSE FOR HATE AND A CAUSE FOR ENDING
IT SOUNDS SO EASY
BUT EVERYTIME WE WERE SUPPOSED TO LET GO
WE'D MAKE LOVE
NOW PULL ME CLOSER, LET THE HEAT TAKE OVER

she's left standing in the middle of doubt

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 10:25:49 GMT

Melissa don't think
she's pretty no more

Starin at the stars
through her back screen door

she tried and tried
to make it all work out

no matter what she does
she's left standin in the middle of doubt

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain you can count on me

sometimes she cries
when she's alone at night
sometimes she weeps
when she's feelin cold and weak
sometimes the pain
it just tears her up inside
sometimes she cries
ooooo.... i wonder why?

melissa don't have
a lover anymore

plays with her pillow
stares at the bedroom floor

used to have a million
they've come and gone..

no matter what she does,
she cant figure out what she's doin' wrong

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain you can count on me

living, loving
givin evrything youve got
after all the heartache
MAYBE GIVE LOVE JUST ONE MORE SHOT YEAH

in a lonely night
and in the pouring rain..
THE ONLY THING I REALLY WANNA KNOW IS WHY...

=(

selfish

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 19:50:36 GMT

..and my heart gets no rest over you

cause i fear i might break...

Sat, 26 May 2007 03:26:29 GMT

and i fear i cant take it

pressure

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 02:00:55 GMT

tell me where our time went
and if it was time well spent
just dont let me fall asleep
feeling empty again

CAUSE I FEAR I MIGHT BREAK
AND I FEAR I CANT TAKE IT
TONIGHT I'LL LIE AWAKE
FEELING EMPTY

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you
i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And theres nothing else to show
For all of the days that were spent
carrying away from hope

SOME THINGS I'LL NEVER KNOW
AND I HAD TO LET THEM GO
IM SITTING ALL ALONE
FEELING EMPTY

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you
i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you

without you

somethings i'll never know
and i had to let them go
somethings i'll never know
and i had to let them go
but i'm sitting all alone
feeling empty

i can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
we're better off without you

FEEL THE PRESSURE
ITS GETTING CLOSER NOW
YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME

meh.

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 21:04:02 GMT

in the winding down hours
i let your heart down again

what i do to make a scene so gory
im no better than the ones before me

old habits die hard
i always end up hating the end

continuum

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 03:31:42 GMT

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity has taken better men than me you see now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Keep you me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Ohh… where the light is!

tell me,

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 03:35:01 GMT

HONESTLY, IF YOU'RE STILL LOVIN ME
LOOKIN INTO MY EYES,

.....HONESTLY.

everything is f'ed up..

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 04:21:45 GMT

straight from the heart.

*15

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 06:23:20 GMT

happy 15 months sweety.

i love you with all my heart.

we'll get through it.

YEEEEEEEEEE

Thu, 25 May 2006 17:31:27 GMT

i missed ANOTHER damn job opportunity cause of transportaton issues
Adam & Alvin came over for BBQ last night
the weather is getting so SEXILY HOT, yumm
lets all strip off our clothes and jump in peoples pools
Yeah baby, Taylor Hicks won!
Finally America, you got it right for once.
sorry katherine, i was rooting for you since day 1
but taylor ripped you apart lmao

this is what we dream about
but the only question with me now
is do i make you proud?
stronger than i've ever been now
never been afraid of standing out
but do i make you proud

adam had a little fever for a day
i made him a card. it amuses me lol
not exactly something you'd see in a "get well" card
but this is my version lol

WOOO TEDDY GEIGER!

Tue, 23 May 2006 19:24:40 GMT

OHHHHHHHH
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have

yesterday was awesome!
Elizabeth Zaplit, Meaghan Man, Charlie, and myself
missioned down to Toronto for our exciting Teddy Geiger mini concert
via Meaghan Mans mom.
arrived @ union, headed for the subway
dug in our bags and purses for change
went to the eatons center and checked out hollister
walked along Queen and jumped onto the streetcar
charlie likes to cross the street without looking!

found the Opera House a lot quicker than expected
waited in line from 5:45 - 8:00 in the cold!
most entertaining line i've ever waited in
wanted to start a riot in the line
pretending teddy had emerged from his tour bus
"OH MY GOD!!.....ITS TEDDY! AHHHHHHHHH"
we named the group of girls behind us Laguna Beach
all toronto girls look and dress the same
with a few acceptions
look-a-like alex from the oc stood behind us
the girl from degrassi stood in line too
we gased her by asking if it was her lol
2 pigeons were getting it on
meaghan man and i got stamps of "the hump" on our hands
to show that we were 19
while charlie and zaplit got 2 big X's lmao

doors opened at 8
we hid our cameras in the crotches of our jeans
we got searched then ran inside for a good spot
we were the second row of people standing in front the stage
the opening guy came out and blew us all away with his
awesome voice and chillen guitar playing
teddy came out at 10
the crazy ass girls behind charlie and i pushed so hard i thought i got laid

charlie bitched at the girl in front of her
meaghan man bitched at the girl behind her
i apologized to the girl in front of me for the bitches behind me
zaplit did no apologizing cause shes so small no one needs to look over her

the music started
95% of the girls there knew all the words to the songs
awesome performance
i wanna go again
he does not look like adam lol

charlie fancied the other guitar player
and took a pic with him outside after the concert lmao

i'll have pics up as soon as the girls send em to me

there's something sweet, and almost kind..

Thu, 18 May 2006 15:41:36 GMT

ha, this movie is awesome, i watched it today. this is the best part

flashback:
nicole: ok gil, you be the girl and i'll be the guy.. SHE GLANCED THIS WAY

***

still raining
finished reading The Da Vinci Code
parents bought tickets for Cuba

***

i just don't understand, why you're running from a good man baby
why you wanna turn your back on love, why you've already given up
see i know you've been hurt before, but i swear i'll give you so much more
i swear i'll never let you down, cause i swear it's you that i adore
and i can't help myself babe, cause i think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you

you can call me selfish, but all I want is your love
you can call me hopeless, cause i'm hopelessly in love
you can call me unperfect, but who's perfect?
tell me what do i gotta do, to prove that i'm the only one for you
what's wrong with being selfish?

i'll be taking up your time, until the day I make you realize
that for you there could be no one else, i just gotta have you for myself
baby i would take good care of you, no matter what it is you're going through
i'll be there for you when you're in need, baby believe in me
if love was a crime, then punish me, i would die for you
cause i don't want to live without you. Oh what can I do?

you can call me selfish, but all I want is your love
you can call me hopeless, cause i'm hopelessly in love
you can call me unperfect, but who's perfect?
tell me what do i gotta do, to prove that i'm the only one for you
what's wrong with being selfish?

selfishly i'm in love with you
cause i've searched my soul
and know that it's you

light my candle

Tue, 09 May 2006 13:00:26 GMT

gonna start some small work at my dads work tomorrow. finally make my ass some money.

You can call me selfish, but all I want is your love

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 15:03:56 GMT

Since 08/08/05. <3

weeeeeeeeeee!

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 02:34:38 GMT

WOO HOO! OFF FOR A WEEK BITCHES!

happy 6 months!

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 06:23:28 GMT

you're the best, i love you.

lol too much to handle

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 14:53:00 GMT

1. ryerson with adam
2. went back to his house
3. played street fighter with paul
4. 8 ppl, 40 battles
5. meg, nicole, dao, cory, rob, jordan, king, gihan, bousi, marco, and probly more ppl came over
6. lotsa smokes
7. enough alcohol
8. too many inuendos
9. a shitload of laughs

pic links below

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 08:11:17 GMT

Another gap in the updating lol. Well this weeks been intense, workload wise. Tryin to finish projects, out and about in the house etc. But the weekend was a nice finish. Went to York on friday to get some books, then went to adams. wanted to c the girlies but nicoles away n meg was busy, boo. but ya, went to adams today cuz he had a family get together for his bday so i stayed. now i gotta do work 2m, GROSS.

pictures from last saturday:

1. go to photobucket.com
2. put in the search box: meg0119
3. put in the search box: nicole1501

i love my weekends

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 22:07:49 GMT

Friday:
ryerson
toronto
mini partay
pizza
bowling

Saturday:
adams house
shoppers
megs dinner
PARTAY

THE LONGGG VERSION!

(friday..)

- went to ryerson with adam
- sat in his 8-10 calculus lecture
- he vandalized by arm with the words 'adam'..then 'brody'
- chilled with his e-block ppls at burger king
- met up with his sister and her boyfriend at the eaton centre
- ran to Hollister cause it opened
- we all bought something
- blair and steph left early
- adam and i made a stop at the stag shop for megs surprise LMAO
- chilled back at his house before going to blairs friends house
- chilled mainly outside at blairs friends before they left for 107
- i left with meg and nicole
- we chilled at tony & jims pizza place
- king tried a hot pepper and turned purple
- nicole tried it too but took it like a champ
- spent a few minutes at brunswick bowling
- made fun of 14 year old birthday shout outs
- took mad pics in the car
- went home!

(saturday..)

- went to adams house around 12
- we went to shoppers
- i bought the def leppard music video dvd
- adam bought street fighter the movie and baseketball
- went back to adams and watched street fighter with steph and paul
- then chilled watching and singing along to def leppard
- went into the garage to blow up baloon animals
- we made our own sword, rabbit, gun, dog, dinosaur, and giraffe
- nicole picked us up for dinner
- we didnt wanna wait 40 min for a table at jack astors
- so we ate at kings restaurant
- he gave us free drinks ;)
- the food was yummy and more than enough
- dao, cory, and gihan met us there
- they taped lube and condoms to megs n adams bday cards
- we left, bought some vanilla colts
- adam lost a condom in the car
- we smoked the colts in adams garage
- went back inside, everyone started coming
- me and nicole decorated the cake in the toy closet LOL
- the fire alarm went off twice during our sparkly candle bday entrance
- everyone was drunk
- meg opened the vibrator me and adam got her as a joke lol
- everyone played with it
- had a good time =)

wanna see pics?

search megaroo_319 on LJ

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MEG!!!!!

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 21:13:11 GMT

PARTY IT UP GIRL!